SOMETIMES I WISH YOU WOULD JUST SMACK THE SHIT OUT OF ME INSTEAD BECAUSE AT LEAST OTHERS WOULD BE ABLE TO SEE THE MARKS YOU PEOPLE MAKE ME WANT TO KILL MYSELF ALMOST EVERY SINGLE DAY OF MY LIFE AND NO ONE CAN FUCKING TELL. I'M BEING SO STRONG JUST BY BEING HERE TODAY AND I GET NO HUGS NO KISSES NO REWARDS NO ACKNOWLEDGEMENT. ONLY CRITICISM BECAUSE I HAVEN'T DONE EVERYTHING THE WAY YOU WANT ME TO. YOU WOULD BE DISAPPOINTED IN ME IF I CUT MY FUCKING WRISTS OPEN AND BLED TO DEATH IN THE GODDAM BATHTUB. WOULDN'T THAT BE FUCKING SAD? YOUR WORTHLESS BASKET CASE OF A DAUGHTER BAILED ON YOU BECAUSE SHE'S WEAK! HAHAHA WAIT MAN MAYBE YOU'D FUCKING LIKE IT IF I HUNG MYSELF BECAUSE IT MAKES THINGS LESS COMPLICATED! HAHA! WOULDN'T YOU LIKE IT? YOU'D SMILE WHEN THEY TAKE MY BROKEN PURPLE BODY INTO THE AMBULANCE BECAUSE ALL I AM AND ALL I'LL EVER BE TO YOU IS AN INCONVENIENCE! AT LEAST YOU WOULDN'T HAVE TO PAY FOR MY FUCKING MEDICATION AND THERAPIST APPOINTMENTS! HAHAHA, I GUESS THE BIGGEST "FUCK YOU" I CAN GIVE TO YOU RETARDED BITCHES IS TO NOT LITERALLY FUCKING KILL MYSELF! I KNOW YOU WANT ME TO! I KNOW IT WOULD MAKE YOUR LIFE SO MUCH FUCKING EASIER IF YOU WOKE UP AND I WAS ROTTING IN HELL WITH PILLS IN MY STOMACH! HAHA, FUCK BOTH OF YOU, YOU'RE HORRIBLE PARENTS! IT'S TOO FUCKING LATE TO BE NORMAL! EVERY TIME YOU TALK TO ME LIKE WE'RE SOME SORT OF NORMAL FUNCTIONAL FAMILY IT MAKES ME WANT TO PAINT THE FUCKING WALLS WITH MY GODDAM BRAIN WITH A SHOTGUN RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU! LMAO! DRINK SHIT AND DIE, YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES!